Saturday, August 14, 2010
I love being a mother (Aka Mommy)
God has so greatly blessed my life. I am so undeserving of His love. He has been so good to me. Yesterday, I was watching some old videos of my older kids when they were babies and I realized how fast the time really does fly by. When you're young, you hear people say that all the time and now that I'm grown and have my own family, I realize it to be true. I couldn't help but cry when I saw each child taking their first step, then talking, then reaching other milestones. I have been very blessed to have 5 perfectly healthy children. I do not take that for granted. This morning, as I was doing dishes, Zek walks up to me with a book. My first thought is to hurry and finish the dishes then maybe I could read it to him. But I thought how many times have one of my children wanted me to do something with them and I was so terribly busy and told them to wait and at the end of the day realize that I never did it with them. I put my dish rag in the sink and dried my hands and took Zek by the hand and we sat on the couch and I read him the book. I cry now as I think about it. My time with my children is so precious and so many times after I've put them to bed I think what did I really do with my children today and can't really think of anything particular that we did. My life is so busy, caught up with lots of laundry, dishes, cooking, keeping kids fed and diapered, vacuuming, mopping...need I go on? This morning, the Lord helped me to see that my time with my kids is more important. God has given them to me to raise and to train for Him and His service. My oldest son is 11 and I think of the day he was born, the day I first became a mother and think, "Where has the time gone?" So, let the house be dirty, let there be a mountain of laundry...one day if the Lord tarries His coming, my children will be all grown and gone and I will then have time to cook and clean to my heart's content. I want my kids to remember that Mommy took time to do the little things with them. I think I stay so tired because my world revolves around all I have to do and it should revolve around my family. Sometimes, I'll even sigh a huge sigh after all are in bed for the night. Yes, as I look around it's hard not to see the dust, the floor that so desperately needs to be swept, the dishes in the sink, but taking just 5 minutes earlier today and reading my little 2 year old a book and the memory we just made, means more to me than anything. Anyone is welcome in my home at any time, (it's hard not to stress about my messy house...it's my pet peeve) but just so you know, my house will not be perfect, may not even be clean, but you'll probably find me in the floor playing cars with my boys, they are just too precious. Thank You, Lord for my family.